Step by step....first I got the proofs. Seeing my own words laid out I can finally visualize the book my manuscript has become. It's strange...I see proofs for the books I edit so often and race through them, making edits, chopping, adding, changing. But it takes me 3 days before I can read past the first page without waves of self-doubt assaulting me. It's crap. I can't beleive I wrote this. Can I re-do it? Then I stoically make myself go through. There are no changes.
Then, yesterday I got the cover image, not the cover itself...just the image. I ask myself....does it fit? I select one and even though the prospect of publication is become more concrete I wonder if I am still asleep and dreaming.